They both seem so much older now than I—
can this be so? Do women age like dogs,
or something out of Wilde? Seven years
for every one we live? He cuts her meat.
Good God, that inward stare! I loved her so.
The self-absorption’s thickened like her hide.
I knew all this before, of course. I knew.
And got out early like the pig I am.
She’s jowly, tense. Elderly. It’s nineteen years …
What was Elena saying as they left?
Arm in arm, as if I’d ceased to be?
They walked along the garden for an hour,
Elena kindly offering E. her laugh.
Two women, arm in arm, whose toes I’ve—
What? What’d I say? Blurted something out—
but what? It must have been unpleasant: clouds
are forming on the brow of Mt. Monadnock.
I’ve added to the burden of his days!
Good Christ, am I going through the change?
Why are they looking at me with such hate?
Why can’t I just remember what I said?
We’ve drunk too much; we always drink too much.
I hear Herself—she calls my name loudly,
a tone of bemusement hiding her rage:
“So are you going to pass him the gravy,
or must the three of us go over there,
and by God take the boat by force?” I see
Elena’s face, alarmed; I look at Gene,
his face savage, full of remorse; then down
at those gravy-less potatoes. I stare
again at E., at E.—are we all insane?
“Of course,” I mumble, “the gravy.” I look
about wildly—thank God, it’s near my plate!
Is there no window in this goddamn house?
-- by Jim Cummins
(Paris Review & Harpers)
Ed note: Read more about Millay in here.
A man's character is often revealed by how he hogs the gravy.
Posted by: Laura Orem | December 28, 2009 at 08:14 AM
Laura, you are a riot! But perhaps you lack the proper respect for His Eminence, Edmund Wilson, the premier critic of American literature. Or "Bunny," as he was known to his intimates.
Posted by: jim cummins | December 28, 2009 at 08:24 AM
There's a great story about a party at the Berrymans' apartment in the late 40s/early 50s, attended by a very manic Theodore Roethke. When Bunny Wilson arrived, Roethke, an enormous bunch of grapes in his massive paw, sauntered up to him, patted Wilson on his jowly jaw, and said, "What's this? Blubber?" Wilson, to his credit, just smiled and said, "And what are you? Some kind of half-baked Bacchus?"
Wilson was a pompous ass, but he was good with the repartee.
PS. Great poem!
Posted by: Laura Orem | December 28, 2009 at 08:41 AM
yes, as i've predicted, more ESVM! when she wrote 'my candle burns at both ends' she really meant it. wilson was so in love with her and what he wrote about her is very moving. he was also the husband of mary mccarthy of course, whose novel 'the group' is said to include a character based on vincent.
Posted by: mitch s. | December 28, 2009 at 10:54 AM
Fantastic poem. Thanks.
Posted by: Noah Burke | December 29, 2009 at 11:51 AM
Noah, thanks for that! Have a good New Year's.
Posted by: Jim Cummins | December 29, 2009 at 07:00 PM