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A Poem as Long as California
This is my pastoral: the used car lot
where someone read Song of Myself over the loudspeaker
all that afternoon, to customers who walked among the cars
mostly absent to what they heard,
except for the one or two who looked up
into the air, as though they recognized the reckless phrases
hovering there with the colored streamers,
their faces suddenly loose with a dreamy attention.
This is also my pastoral: once a week,
in the apartment above, the prayer group that would chant
for a sustained hour. I never saw them,
I didn’t know the words they sang, but I could feel
my breath running heavy or light
as the hour’s abstract narrative unfolded, rising and falling
like cicadas, sometimes changing in abrupt
turns of speed, as though a new cantor had taken the lead.
And this, too, is my pastoral: reading in my car
in the supermarket parking lot, reading the Spicer poem
where he wants to write a poem as long
as California. It was cold in the car, then it was too dark.
Why had I been so forlorn, when there was so much
just beyond, leaning into life? Even the cart
humped on a concrete island, the left-behind grapefruit
in the basket like a lost green sun.
And this is my pastoral: reading again and again
the paragraph in the novel by DeLillo where the family eats
the take-out fried chicken in their car,
not talking, trading the parts of the meal among themselves
in a primal choreography, a softly single consciousness,
while outside, everything stumbled apart,
the grim world pastoralizing their heavy coats,
the car’s windows, their breath and hands, the grease.
If, by pastoral, we mean a kind of peace,
this is my pastoral: walking up Grand Avenue, down 6th
Avenue, up Charing Cross Road, down Canal,
then up Valencia, all the way back to Agua Dulce Street,
the street of my childhood, terrifying with roaring trucks
and stray dogs, but whose cold sweetness
flowed night and day from the artesian well at the corner,
where the poor got their water. And this is
also my pastoral: in 1502, when Albrecht Dürer painted
the young hare, he painted into its eye
the window of his studio. The hare is the color
of a winter meadow, brown and gold, each strand of fur
like a slip of grass holding an exact amount
of the season’s voltage. And the window within the eye,
which you don’t see until you see, is white as a winter sky,
though you know it is joy that is held there.
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Rick Barot’s most recent book of poems is Moving the Bones, published by Milkweed Editions in 2024. His previous collection, The Galleons, was longlisted for the National Book Award. He has received fellowships from the Guggenheim Foundation, the National Endowment for the Arts, and Stanford University. He lives in Tacoma, Washington and directs The Rainier Writing Workshop, the low-residency MFA program in creative writing at Pacific Lutheran University. [Author photo by Rachel McCauley.}
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Jack Spicer, second from left, with members of the staff of the Poetry Center at San Francisco State College in 1957: Ida Hodes, Ruth Witt-Diamant, and Robert Duncan. Photo by Harry Redl.
Marvelous
Posted by: Jody Payne | November 10, 2024 at 11:48 AM
a brilliant poem, worthy of whitman and spicer
Posted by: lally | November 10, 2024 at 11:57 AM
What a remarkable poem! I love all the references. I also really appreciate the images you included, Terry.
Posted by: Abbie Mulvihill | November 10, 2024 at 12:03 PM
Thanks, Abbie. Glad you liked it.
Posted by: Terence Winch | November 10, 2024 at 12:48 PM
Beautiful!…What a breath of fresh air…another keeper…Thank you Terence and thank you Rick…
Posted by: Sr. Leslie | November 10, 2024 at 12:50 PM
So rich and lovely.
Posted by: Cleo | November 10, 2024 at 12:52 PM
If ever poetry were connected to Source.
Posted by: Grace Cavalieri | November 10, 2024 at 01:28 PM
This poem treats us to a bunch of things we'd never experience without first reading Barot's words about what he's come across, classified and interpreted. I love the structure, first an uncanny, striking, original pastoral and then the scene (small story) growing out of each. Hooray for Rick's memory, ear, and genius, and for Terence's wisdom and energy in finding and placing this where we can all be thrilled by it.
Posted by: Don Berger | November 10, 2024 at 01:43 PM
A pleasure to read this (in a time when any pleasure is a treasure).
Posted by: Alan Bernheimer | November 10, 2024 at 01:47 PM
Remarkable!
Posted by: s campbell | November 10, 2024 at 02:23 PM
A lovely poem. This is definitely a keeper. The photo and painting of the hare add to the enjoyment of this poem.
Posted by: Eileen Reich | November 10, 2024 at 03:18 PM
I loved it! It became my pastoral this afternoon! I keep rereading it…
Posted by: Charlene M Auer | November 10, 2024 at 03:19 PM
I had never looked that closely in the rabbit's eye. Small miracles. Thank you.
Posted by: Phyllis Rosenzweig | November 10, 2024 at 03:23 PM
Thanks, Leslie. Happy you liked it.
Posted by: Terence Winch | November 10, 2024 at 04:33 PM
Thank you, Prof. Berger.
Posted by: Terence Winch | November 10, 2024 at 04:44 PM
Charlene---thanks for commenting!
Posted by: Terence Winch | November 10, 2024 at 04:46 PM
Barot doesn’t have to write another poem as long as he lives, though I’m sure that won’t be the case. And I hope it won’t be. He has said it all in his beautiful pastorals. What I would give to be in a used car lot and hear Walt Whitman.
Posted by: Anne Harding Woodworth | November 11, 2024 at 04:06 AM
I quite literally felt my hair standing on end reading this superb poem. It speaks to me as a city girl whose recalled pastorals include streetcars rumbling on tracks up and down St. Paul st, butter brickle ice cream cones in the back seat of my step grandfather’s old deSoto
Posted by: Clarinda | November 12, 2024 at 12:24 PM
As you know, Terence, I love longer poems, and this is an absolute gem of a work.
Posted by: Thomas Davis | November 16, 2024 at 10:47 AM
Tom! Nice to hear from you.
Posted by: Terence Winch | November 16, 2024 at 01:06 PM